Day 69....where did that waggon go??

Right,

I have 10 minutes to up-date you so will do in in bullet points. Paul Mort texted me last night to remind me that I hadn't done this for ages (thanks Paul!!!) and caught me tucking into a passion fruit Creme Brulee at my Christmas meal. So.....

• Last week was emotionally awful....two bereavements, friends in emotional strife, major work being done to my kitchen, another friend rushed into hospital with life-threatening issues
• I fell off the waggon basically. Initially with a huge pork and stuffing sarnie, a bag of crisps and a chocolate eclair and then with 4 slices of sponge cake on Monday and a tier of Milk Tray chocs on Tuesday
• We are talking engorgement here.....
• After pouring my heart out to Dax and Paul, I realised emotional eating was getting me nowhere and no going to bring my friend back
• I went out for lunch and dinner yesterday and did ok. The only thing I ate that was slightly suspect was the creme brulee, which I enjoyed very much
• Exercise has been patchy.
• I lied there, it has not really happened. I feel achy and lack lustre and am not really getting there, though managing once a day
• I am now doing 'eat stop eat' as recommended by Dax. I feel that this two-day per week fast could be right up my street as when I am good I am very very good.....and focussed too
• I have not eaten since last night and am feeling a bit muddled (not sleeping well though) and strange, and hungry....though coping somehow.
• I feel I can do this
• The ship is turning slowly, but it is turning.........
• No significant weight gain strangely........

So, the plan

• Revisit goals asap and stop munching stuff
• Brave a work out on a seriously empty tummy
• Try this two day a week fast during Christmas and eat as healthily as possible
• Use the Christmas break as space to get back on track with work outs- it is amazing how quicly you seize up when you lose that momentum
• Stop moaning and get on with it- though give myself permission to enjoy life
• Remember to celebrate successes- I bumped into a former student yesterday who was amazed at how much better I look after 2 years. She said '10 years younger and cooler' ....bless!!!

That's all for now. Now, where did that waggon go??!!

xxx Jo

Day 54....3 punds heavier than this time last week....gaaaaah!!!

I cannot believe this!!

Why is this so slow??

For much of the week, I have followed the following eating template:

Breakfast: either a slice of rye toast and a banana or omlette and a veggie shake

Snack: crudites or veg shake

Lunch: chicken salad, no dressing every day

Snack: 3 oatcakes

Dinner: Plain old lean meat or fish and a pile of veggies

I have bust a gut working out and not missed a single session....add that to an hour and a half of pilates on Weds.

So what is the problem here??

Still focussed, still motivated......and still waiting!!!

xxx Jo

Day 52.....A bit confused

So how come I am putting on weight? I was 11 stone 9 on Sunday, 11 stone 10 on Tuesday and now I am 11 stone 12.5!! I haven't put a foot wrong.....am eating teeny amounts of carb and no carbs after 6pm and doing all that is expected of me on the work-out front too.

Had a fab Pilates session last night.

I am not saying that this plan is having no impact.....I am fitter, stronger, more focussed, more flexible and am starting to feel slimmer....

It is just that my weight is so volatile....

Help!!!


xx

Day 49....tired and floppy

Maybe it is the grey, cold weather.....?

Maybe it is the fact that it is December........?

Perhaps it is just the way I am feeling..........?

Fact is, I am tired and floppy and could just curl up in a ball!!

Food wise I have been a saint. Exercise has been a bit hit and miss......nothing on Thu, one on Fri, a double session in the morning on Sat, two sessions yesterday and did my workout this morning. So more hit than miss perhaps, but I need to be more consistent.

The wave plan is great, though I do get tired of eating chicken and celery sometimes. Am getting better at making veg shakes and this morning's carrot, celery, spinach and red pepper combo was lovely and sweet.

It is starchy carb day tomorrow and am looking forward to a banana for my breakfast!! Mmmmm.

Lunch today was simple but lovely. Sliced chicken breast, spinach leaves and cherry tomatoes. Oh, and a boiled egg. That was it! Nothing more, nothing less. No dressing, toasted seeds. Just fresh and simple flavours and I loved it. Have snacked on vegetable juice, a few nuts and some celery and carrots today.

I am determined that this week is going to me my week.....

xxx Jo

Day 44....oh bugger

Hi there,

Food wise...I am doing great....my appetite seems to have reduce and my shape is definately changing

Excercise wise I am having one day off...........just one. This is because I was poorly this morning (honest! very poorly tummy.....No excuses!!) and I have had a facial this evening and don't want to get all sweaty and worked up after that experience of bliss.

One day off only....trust me!!

This is working

However, I texted Paul Mort today to see if he would go soft on me (because I knew Dax would not) and let me do a work out double up in the evenings rather than Am and PM.....he said that twice a day hits the metabolism twice and reminded me that everything I want is just outside of my comfort zone......

So will I work out tonight despite facial??

Course I will.....going to keep that comfort zone in my mind as I progress as morning sessions are getting harder to get up for.........

xxxx Jo

Day 43....I believe....

To follow on from Dax' initiative, here is what I believe......(related to my current quest)

• I believe I have both the capacity and the ability to achieve my goals
• I believe I am a committed and tenacious person
• I believe I have the drive and the commitment to realise my dreams
• I believe that I can do the impossible I you commit
• I believe that my aspirations are the most important fuel for action
• I believe that sometimes I sell myself short, and this must change
• I believe I make excuses and I must learn to take responsibility
• I believe I sometimes blame my past for the challenges I experience today and it is time to reset the way I see things
• I believe I lie to myself and I must face the truth
• I believe I sometimes flake out when the going gets tough and I must stand up again
• I believe I can procrastinate and I must embrace the moment
• I believe I can change all of these things from this day forward
• I know I am going to win this one.....

xx Jo

Day 39- OMG today was hard....really hard...., really, really hard

Tired

Have gained a couple of pounds back despite staying completely 'on message'

And was starving today as my veggie shake was grim (too much gloopy Kale) and I rushed out of the house with barely anything on my tummy to do a really hard gig.

I was launching my first big research project to a crowd of potentially terrifying participants, and though it went really well, the leached me of energy!!

The food we had laid on for them was the big problem. In the morning, coffee, tea, pastries, muffins, smoothies......and there I am standing there with s stick of celery and a small tub of a bad batch of red pepper hummus I had made. I was famished and nearly fell off the waggon, telling myself I deserved a day off and the rest of the rubbish you tell yourself at these times.

But I persevered and at lunch time, the wheat free lunch I had ordered turned out to be full of pasta and dressing (??!!) which I rejected. The plates of wraps and sandwiches were screaming at me as the glycogen seeped out of my system, as were the slices of walnut cake.

I resisted and tucked into my dry, unappealing and hastily prepared 'plan B' lunch of spinach leaves, chicken and seeds.

But I did it. My head was banging as it has started to do on low carb days, but I did it. So hurrah!!

Have just made a chicken biryani using Quinoa instead of rice with a fresh veg curry sauce....lovely.

Lord knows where these pounds keep rebounding from.....my weight really is a bugger to shift!!!

Catch you tomorrow

xxx